Tuesday, August 30, 2011

massage is still a no-go.

How sad is it that I have no desire to give massage anymore? It is possible that I am still just in a slump, a mini period of being burnt out, and I will get over it and love my job again, but right now I am not feeling it.

Do you know why this sucks? Because I used to LOVE my job. And I felt sorry for all those suckers who didn't love theirs and did theirs just for the money.

Well, I don't make a lot of money, so if I don't love it, why am I doing it?

To be fair, my first and third massages today were very enjoyable. It was just the second one that sucked. Stupid lower trapezius muscle, why won't you release?!?

And even with not loving my job at the moment, my life still rocks. So I'm not complaining.

Maybe this is what I need... the motivation to go out there and devote myself to writing. When I was loving my massage job I had no motivation to do anything different. Now I do.

Perhaps this is the kick in the pants that I need.

Or maybe I need to just get back in the groove.

It's been a weird month.

C'est la vie.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

civil war stories

The best thing about doing research for a story is the weird things you run across, that you NEVER would have seen otherwise.

Like this little story:

The Barlow/Gordon Incident At Gettysburg

Returning from the banks of the Susquehanna, and meeting at Gettysburg, July 1, 1863, the advance of Lee's forces, my command was thrown quickly and squarely on the right flank of the Union army. A more timely arrival never occurred. The battle had been raging for four or five hours. The Confederate General Archer, with a large portion of his brigade, had been captured. Heth and Scales, Confederate generals, had been wounded. The ranking Union commander on the field, General Reynolds, had been killed, and Hancock was assigned to command. The battle, upon the issue of which hung, perhaps, the fate of the Confederacy, was in full blast. The Union forces, at first driven back, now reƫnforced, were again advancing and pressing back Lee's left and threatening to envelop it. The Confederates were stubbornly contesting every foot of ground, but the Southern left was slowly yielding. A few moments more and the day's battle might have been ended by the complete turning of Lee's flank.

I was ordered to move at once to the aid of the heavily pressed Confederates. With a ringing yell, my command rushed upon the line posted to protect the Union right. Here occurred a hand-to-hand struggle. That protecting Union line once broken left my command not only on the right flank, but obliquely in rear of it. Any troops that were ever marshalled would, under like conditions, have been as surely and swiftly shattered. There was no alternative for Howard's men except to break and fly, or to throw down their arms and surrender. Under the concentrated fire from front and flank, the marvel is that any escaped.

In the midst of the wild disorder in his ranks, and through a storm of bullets, a Union officer was seeking to rally his men for a final stand. He, too, went down, pierced by a MiniƩ ball. Riding forward with my rapidly advancing lines, I discovered that brave officer lying upon his back, with the July sun pouring its rays into his pale face. He was surrounded by the Union dead, and his own life seemed to be rapidly ebbing out. Quickly dismounting and lifting his head, I gave him water from my canteen, asked his name and the character of his wounds. He was Major-General Francis C. Barlow, of New York, and of Howard's corps. The ball had entered his body in front and passed out near the spinal cord, paralyzing him in legs and arms. Neither of us had the remotest thought that he could possibly survive many hours. I summoned several soldiers who were looking after the wounded, and directed them to place him upon a litter and carry him to the shade in the rear. Before parting, he asked me to take from his pocket a package of letters and destroy them. They were from his wife. He had but one request to make of me. That request was that if I should live to the end of the war and should ever meet Mrs. Barlow, I would tell her of our meeting on the field of Gettysburg and of his thoughts of her in his last moments. He wished me to assure her that he died doing his duty at the front, that he was willing to give his life for his country, and that his deepest regret was that he must die without looking upon her face again.

I learned that Mrs. Barlow was with the Union army, and near the battlefield. When it is remembered how closely Mrs. Gordon followed me, it will not be difficult to realize that my sympathies were especially stirred by the announcement that his wife was so near him. Passing through the day's battle unhurt, I despatched at its close, under flag of truce, the promised message to Mrs. Barlow. I assured her that if she wished to come through the lines she should have safe escort to her husband's side.

In the desperate encounters of the two succeeding days, and the retreat of Lee's army, I thought no more of Barlow, except to number him with the noble dead of the two armies who had so gloriously met their fate. The ball, however, had struck no vital point, and Barlow slowly recovered, though this fact was wholly unknown to me. The following summer, in battle near Richmond, my kinsman with the same initials, General J. B. Gordon of North Carolina, was killed. Barlow, who had recovered, saw the announcement of his death, and entertained no doubt that he was the Gordon whom he had met on the field of Gettysburg. To me, therefore, Barlow was dead; to Barlow, I was dead.

Nearly fifteen years passed before either of us was undeceived. During my second term in the United States Senate, the Hon. Clarkson Potter, of New York, was a member of the House of Representatives. He invited me to dinner in Washington to meet a General Barlow who had served in the Union army. Potter knew nothing of the Gettysburg incident. I had heard that there was another Barlow in the Union army, and supposed, of course, that it was this Barlow with whom I was to dine. Barlow had a similar reflection as to the Gordon he was to meet. Seated at Clarkson Potter's table, I asked Barlow: "General, are you related to the Barlow who was killed at Gettysburg?" He replied: "Why, I am the man, sir. Are you related to the Gordon who killed me?" "I am the man, sir," I responded. No words of mine can convey any conception of the emotions awakened by those startling announcements. Nothing short of an actual resurrection from the dead could have amazed either of us more. Thenceforward, until his untimely death in 1896, the friendship between us which was born amidst the thunders of Gettysburg was greatly cherished by both.

Magic Eraser


Okay, I'm not usually one to talk about cleaning products, but my mom and my sister have been raving for months about how awesome the Magic Eraser is.

They swear it is the best thing to clean the bathroom.

Well, I just happened to have one sitting out the other day (that seems like a random thing to have sitting out, but that is just how my life goes) and I looked over at the nasty, grease covered stovetop and I thought, "Hey, why not?"

And it was amazing! It seriously got clean in one swipe! No scrubbing. No heavy cleaners.

It rocked my world. Kind of makes me want to go clean other things now!

I can't recommend it enough!

And that's enough talk about cleaners.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

typos

Yes, I'm an English nerd. Yes, I notice typos and misspellings everywhere. Most of the time I get mildly annoyed by them but nothing major. But I love when the typo changes the meaning of a sentence without the author realizing it.

There are many, many great examples on Facebook.

http://www.happyplace.com/3645/the-best-obnoxious-responses-to-misspellings-on-facebook

But you can also find them in real life. I was looking at my client's intake form the other day at work and it asked her how she heard about our spa. Most people will put down "from a friend" or "thru yelp." We make our clients fill out a new form every few years and so they don't always remember how they originally heard about it.

My client put down "I've been coming here for ions."

Really? I didn't even know that we carried ions at the spa!

It's such a tiny typo, but makes such a big change in the sentence! That's why English is so much fun!


Thursday, August 11, 2011

pics from my trip


This pic isn't actually from my trip, it's from about a block away from my house in Chicago but I completely fell in love with this cloud and had to share it!


This is the Biltmore Estate is Ashville, NC. It is the largest private residence in the US. Owned by the Vanderbilts. It's pretty much a castle only more comfortable with modern conveniences.



It contains my dream library! Seriously, it is straight out of Beauty & the Beast. We weren't allowed to take pics, hence the poor quality as I quickly snuck this one in. There is a chess set there that used to be owned by Napoleon.


The best part about road trips are the sunsets! This is the sunset in Kentucky which was of course way more spectacular than my phone is showing.


This is the question and answer session at the end with Orson Scott Card. He is sitting down because he had a stroke earlier this year and was pretty wiped out by the end. The girl to the left was the annoying girl in class who ALWAYS had her hand up. While I was sad to leave, I was NOT sad to get away from her.


This is the first time I ever had Chick-fil-A. Not that impressed. It was fine but not worth all the raving that southerns do about it.

Again, the pic doesn't do it justice but our drive took us through the Blue Ridge Mountains and there was just gorgeousness and forests all around. Blows my mind how rural most of the US is!

And I hate the Chicago Skyway toll road but I have to say that it gives you a pretty striking view of the city as you enter from that direction.

permission

Do you want to know what boggles the mind? How little self-confidence writers have. Whenever we share our work with people we have to do it with the caveat that it "isn't finished yet" or "isn't very good."

Orson Scott Card (henceforth referred to as OSC) talked about how in his daughter's third grade writing class the teacher did a brilliant thing- she gave the kids free writing time. Write however you want. Spell however you want. Punctuate however you want. You won't be graded. You won't be corrected. Totally freedom to write whatever you want and NOT be told that it is wrong. Not be judged.

Why don't we have self-confidence? Because we ARE judged. Often. And mainly by ourselves. And we hold ourselves to higher standards.

Well, I'm changing that. I'm giving myself permission to write whatever I want. I'm giving myself permission to fail and not let it ruin my life. (Though I'm not going to.) But I'm not going to let the fear of that stop me.

It's not failure till you stop.

As long as I keep writing I haven't failed. As long as I keep breathing, I haven't failed. There is always the chance to try again and succeed. I won't be a failed writer until I die. Until that point, if I am not successful, I will just be a not-yet successful writer. Not a failed writer.

I'm giving myself permission to LOVE what I write, even if it isn't award winning.

I give myself permission to ignore my critics, particularly my inner ones.

In short, I give myself permission to rock.

I give you permission too.

Rock on, crouton.

uncle orson's writing class

You are probably wondering what it is like to take a writing class with your favorite author. Well, let me tell you, it's AWESOME!!!

Orson Scott Card is my favorite author. While known mainly for his sci-fi and fantasy he also has written thrillers and horror and historical fiction.

I knew he was a Mormon but didn't know what to expect. And he was exactly what I expected and nothing like I expected. He is OPINIONATED! Not all of which I agree with, but most I do. He talked about how being an English major in college will not help you be a writer. English classes teach you how to dissect literature, to look for symbolism and foreshadowing. It doesn't teach you how to write.

He spent the class teaching us how to write. And how to be marketable. You want to write in present tense? Go ahead, but realize that most best selling authors are set in past tense.

How much better is it to be taught writing by a best selling author whose works you love than by my former writing teachers who have never been published or published only in New Zealand? I'm much more willing to believe him than them. Plus he is telling me the things that I WANT to hear. You DON'T have to start a story in the middle of an action shot. You don't have to give elaborate descriptions of your characters.

The things he said just made sense. I like sense.

Plus he is a decent human being. A real person.

The writing class was wonderful. Spending time with my mom on the way there and back was wonderful. Surrounding myself with fellow fantasy and sci-fi nerds was wonderful. All in all, a wonderful trip.

Glad to be back home and ready to write!

Saturday, August 6, 2011

Road trip!!!

Oh boy! Just waiting for my mom to pick me up so we can get started on our road trip! Woohoo! North Carolina here I come! Thankfully (though not for my wallet!) it is a slow day at work so we get to leave early and break the driving into two days. Fourteen hours in one day would have been a bit rough!

I get to meet my favorite author on Monday. That is so weird to me. You read these words that just speak to you and you feel such a huge connection to the author- will meeting him in person be able to live up to that??

Gotta go. Wish me luck!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

cheese

"Poets have been mysteriously silent on the subject of cheese."
-G.K. Chesterton.

So true. There should be odes written to cheese.

When my blood sugar is low I get crabby. When I am hungry I get crabby. When I eat cheese, I get happy.

I think whenever I am mad at someone, I should eat some cheese and then decide if I am really mad at someone or not.

Mike totally went out after work instead of coming straight home. But since I came home and ate some delicious cheese on my favorite crackers, I really just don't care. Had I been sitting here all hungry, there would have been hell to pay.

Cheese just saved my relationship.

Oh, and more cheese quotes because, well, why not?


"How can anyone govern a nation that has two hundred and forty-six different kinds of cheese?"
-Charles De Gaulle

Monday, August 1, 2011

an ode to rice

Dear Rice,
You are now my most favorite food in the entire world. I'm not sure if I should eat you every day to honor you or never eat you again out of respect for you. Thank you for taking my cell phone, which had one foot in his murky, water-filled grave and bringing him back to life. I owe you BIG TIME!!!
xoxo- Nikki

So on Saturday morning my water bottle opened in my bag and drenched my cell phone, making it go capootsie. I had heard that putting a wet phone in a bag of uncooked rice and leaving it for twenty-four hours could bring the phone back to life as the rice absorbed all the moisture.

And it worked!!!!!

Thank the lord, because with taxes and fees it would have cost me $750 to get a new one! Which is not in the cards for me right now. I was debating between giving up a cell phone all together and getting a super cheap one for the time being.

But we took it out of the magical rice bag this morning and plugged it in and voila! It's back! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

I think it in part has something to do with the magical sandwich I ate yesterday. Seriously... magical. Every single part of the sandwich blew my mind. The fresh sourdough/rye bread that Mike had just baked and then grilled in a pan with some olive oil drizzled over it. Oh my god. And the avocado and tomato that were perfectly ripe. Oh my god. The arugala that we had picked up at the farmer's market that morning. Oh my god. The fresh basil that I picked from our garden. Oh my god. The fancy parmesan cheese shaved on the top. Oh my friggin' god!

Nothing could go wrong when you have a sandwich like that. It was life changing. And when I say that nothing could go wrong... I mean that no matter what goes wrong, it isn't going to get to me because I get to eat a sandwich like that and live with a guy who can make me that sandwich again and again!

So I just want to say thank you Universe for all the abundant blessing you have bestowed on me!